My husband had a major heart attack yesterday. His heart actually stopped beating at one point. He's 40 years old.

He's probably going to be okay, but right now he's in critical condition.

I sat with him for hours yesterday just holding his hand. Because he's unconscious, or sedated, its the first time in months I've felt comfortable around him...when I don't have my guard up. I'm almost afraid of when he wakes up. Will it be the addict or is the man I married in there somewhere?

The heart attack was probably caused by cocaine use. Will this be the wake up call or just another blip on the radar screen to him?

It's been rough. His poor mom - my father in law died just over two weeks ago. He was diagnosed with lung cancer and died 5 weeks later. I'm glad he isn't here to see this. It would have broken his heart.

I can't even think straight.

Thanks for reading, friends. I believe in prayer, so if you would say one or two for us, thanks.